It is done..

I did it, peeps..

I have thrown in the towel on 5 May 2014. It was on my first day to work after coming back from a long holiday.

I have triggered the chain of reaction and the domino tiles are now falling... It is now the point of no return..

There were 'alleged' episodes of freaking out, because it was a totally unexpected move from me.

Everyone in the office were in a state of shock. My dearest friend went through an episode of depression because like she said, she knew  I was going to leave, but she never thought that I really would. (Despite my numerous hints.)

Some are sad, others are shocked. And another is excited for me..

How do I feel, you ask?

I am sad, of course.

I mean, how does one say goodbye to a place that they have known for so long? Then I find myself asking another question, 'How much longer can you stay? Is there any reason for you to stay?'

I guess the hardest part about letting go of this job is that, I truly cherished it. When I first got it, it was an answered prayer down to the T.

I loved and cherished this opened door as much as Smigel loved his ring..

For that reason, I stayed even when it was easier to resign. I was hungry to learn.

But as much as I cherished it, I have reached a point where I no longer enjoy it.  As much as I was very hungry to learn, it was no longer feeding me right.

Some asked me why would I throw away something I have worked so long for. I am not sure if 'throwing away' is quite how I would describe how I feel about it.

It felt more like, "This has been my baby for 10 years, and  now I am returning it with much love. Thank you for giving me the chance to build it and let it grow to the best I know how. May not be enough to some, but that was all that I have".

So now I am in the process of letting it go.

Not easy. Not easy at all.

Need to keep reminding myself of this :

(Pinterest)