Promise...

Of dreams and visions..

 

I have left this blog unattended for quite a while. It is not like I lack things to write about. In fact, I have many things I wish I could write about. Ok, to be precise, to vent about..

 

But maybe  I will vent another time..

 

Not today..

 

Today I would like to cling on to something dear to me.. Something I tend to let slip from the consciousness of my being, as I 'allow' the waves of life's daily frustrations overwhelm me.

 

Today, I would like to choose to be reminded of my dreams and visions.

 

Today, I am cherishing my dreams and visions. I will allow it to grow bigger, and more pronounced as I begin to discover words to describe them. It used to be just a thought; something I could not even utter. Or to be precise, something I did not believe I deserve.

 

But I am beginning to believe that I do deserve and own these dreams.

 

I am beginning to believe that they are put there for a reason. And I look forward to see what those reasons would be...

 

 

 





 

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The critics don't count

Have you ever struggled with a decision that just leaves you in a total state of dilemma. But at the same time, you just know you just had to make it.

 

I am still struggling with mine. I've made a decision that is less popular because it is a road less trodden.

 

With all my heart I wish my loved ones could just accept my decision. However, I know where the 'resistance' is coming from.

 

It comes from their own fear of the unknown.

 

And out of that fear, comes barrages of critiques, that at times, can be overwhelming and disheartening.

 

Of course, I do not blame them for 'fearing' for me. They fear for my wellbeing out of love for me. I totally get it. But when words of 'non-blessing' starts spewing out; and coming from one you love, it can sure starts taking its toll on you.

 

Oh well...

 

That is why the quote below is means a lot to me, at a time when I need to find my centre again.

 

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great end of triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”

~ Theodore Roosevelt~

Wisdom and Reminder

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First landing

The long awaited day finally came.

 

The day I waited to see this view; of the Land Downunder.

 

 

I finally 'landed' on this corner of the huge continent on 12 May 2013.

It was mid autumn in these part of the world.

 

 

 

 

Maybe it was the weather, or maybe it was the occasion, or maybe it was my first experience of its mild autumn.

 

Somehow, all these 'maybe's rolled into one, made me realised how beautiful a fallen maple leave really is.

 

{I even brought home 2 pieces of such leaves. I am not sure if it is allowed to bring in leaves from another country into this country, but I did pray hard that I would not be dragged into quarantine because if it.}

 

 

Picture was taken in one of the winery I went to. See, even the locals love their maple leave.

 

So, do excuse this woman from the tropics who has 'leaf crush', ya..

 

Anyway, I had a wonderful trip getting to know this new place.

 

And most importantly, I am very happy that my visa is now ACTIVATED..

 

Story of Joseph

A friend of mine shared a wonderful reminder on our closed group chat on FB yesterday.  It was about the lessons learnt  from the life of Joseph.

This 'To Do' list is a wonderful personal reminder and a blessing for me, as I tend to fall off the wagon faith-wise.

And  I hope it is a blessing for you too, as much it has been for me.

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Trust that God is working everything in your life for your good (Rom. 8:28).

Believe that the heavenly Father is in control of everything.

Accept that the Lord’s ways are higher than ours

(Isa. 55:8-9).

Refuse to make quick judgments in the midst of a crisis.

Focus on the Father instead of circumstances. Meditate on Scripture, which fuels your awareness of God’s unconditional love and comforting presence.

Avoid dwelling on the pain. It’s normal to feel the sting of loss and suffering, but instead of fixating on the grief, go to the ultimate Source of strength—God Himself.

Recall past crises and the opportunities that followed.

(See Romans 8:29.)

Let go of anger immediately

(Eph. 4:26).

Submit to God’s will.

Demonstrate a spirit of gratitude.

Determine to view the trial as a chance to see God at work.

Refuse to listen to unscriptural interpretations of the situation.

Remain in constant prayer, listening for the Father’s instructions. God will often use hardship to draw you closer to Himself.

Do not give in to fluctuating emotions.

Obey God and leave all the consequences to Him. You can’t go wrong by trusting Him with your entire life.

~Genesis Chapters 37-50 ~

Authentic

Today

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I am having one of those rare days of having this 'space' all to myself. I used to have my own 'space' for a good number of years, until so-call progression came along.

 

I did not intend to pen my thoughts today, either. But being by myself, reminds me of the time, way back then. It did not occur to me how much I miss those time, until today. I missed the solidarity.

 

Anyway, it also made me think about how I was then, and how I am now.

 

How have I changed, you might ask?

 

I am no longer the same hungry and ambitious girl, I was back then. Back then, you could throw your shit {disguised as corporate politics} at me, and I'd take it. I could take it because I was hungry to learn.

 

Being here as long as I have, made me realised I no longer like nor want to climb the corporate ladder. Especially after you know how the upper echelon 'looks like'. Don't get me wrong. There is nothing wrong in how it 'looks like' if you are up for it.

 

But I found that is not what I want for myself. At least, not anymore.

 

Hence, the Dream which I am pursuing right now.

 

Trying to do something remarkable with my life by my own standard.. :)

 

 

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In retrospect...

What do you know... It is 2013 (already!) and mid March, no less...

Oh boy, where do I even begin..

As with most folks out there, at this time of the year we tend to gasp in disbelief that we are already into the first quarter of the brand new year, when it felt like we just saw the New Year's fireworks just the other night.

Anyway, as of previous years, I did not have any new resolution this year, it was more of a continuation of pursuit of a dream from the year before.

When I started this blog, I did not really have a theme in mind, as most bloggers do, too. I just felt the need to write. As it turned out, it became my cryptic but therapeutic, no less,  online journal.

Rewind to 2010, I stood over an edge of a cliff  and saw this similar view.

 

It was then , I started to feel a slight tug at my heart. And at that cliff edge, I planted my dream.

 

And soon, I began to learn, and re-discover the beauty of a dream.

 

When you first started dreaming, initially that is all there is to it. 

 

Just strings of images that runs in you mind.

 

And then, you so believe in the images that you no longer just want to 'see' the images in your mind but you want to feel it, and 'be part of'  or 'living' the dream.

 

That's when you decide you have got to start to make concrete little plans.

 

Little plans became little steps.

 

Little steps formed actions which set the creaky wheels in motions.

 

Little motions brings forth new reaction. Stuff you are not familair with, and even scared you; not a little, but a lot!

 

But you want the dream more than you are scared of it.

 

In pursuing this dream, I learnt more about trusting God in His timing. I learnt there is no use in rushing Him. After all, we are reminded constantly 'Not to worry'.

 

No easy feat. But do-able.

 

It helps too when we have a grateful heart. Yes, it is impossible to worry and be grateful at the same time. So, choose our battle wisely. I can choose to spend time worrying, or spend the same being grateful.  

 

My dream is within my grasp, but I am not quite there yet. But I will be there soon.

 

Stay on for the ride with me? :)