His promise

Deuteronomy 1:30

The LORD your God who goes before you will himself fight for you, just as he did for you in Egypt before your eyes.

Retreat!

Phew! Finally, after the long anticipation, we managed to pull it off. A lot had happened in between the time we first booked our flight to the day we actually arrived.

Lives have changed, and at one point, we did not even think we could make the trip happened. We learnt a lot about ourselves and clung to each other like its our last lifeline to sanity during that period. We are separated geographically to all 3 corners, but always drew strength from one another. Even with the advance of technology, nothing beats the actual moment of being with one another and just 'recuperate'.

God knew this trip was a much needed retreat for all of us. So, for those short precious moments, we chose to focus only on His blessing.

We arrived on the day the city was having their full day rehearsal for the Malaysia Day Celebration. The city was filled with an air of celebration. There were full dress parade rehearsals and air shows. 

The next day we drove to our much anticipated, Tip of Borneo. We went without much expectation, only the desire to be able to see what the Tip of Borneo would look like.

Once there, all of us were agaped to be greeted by this view.

 The view just takes my breath away.

In the picture below is the actual ground mass that makes up the 'Ear of the Tiger'. We had to drive a bit more towards it.

There it is. 

Walking closer towards it.

There.

'You are here'

After that landmark you walk further..

 And that boulder, peeps, is the tip most 'Tip of Borneo'.{Is my sentence making sense?} 

Oh, how happy we were!

With our other halves.

The smiles says it all.

Rejoice!

Oh my! Through God's grace, I achieved the target! It was a near impossible target that requires divine intervention. There was truly no way I could do this on my own. Hah! How wonderful it is to have connection in 'high places'. ;)

The result was as out a couple of days ago. I procrastinated going online to check it out as I was away on a vacation {topic for another blog}. Although I did think about it on the scheduled day of the result being released; at one point my anxiety almost spoiled my holiday. Then I was reminded again of a comforting word shared by a wonderful sister, to always look heavenward in whatever our circumstances we may be in.

I will lift up my eyes to the hills; From whence comes my help?

My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.

Psalms 121:1-2

Thank you Father God!

Learning to be still

So, I sat for the exam last Saturday. The result is expected to be to out in a couple of weeks. I have done the best I know how.

I learnt over the course of last week, that my anxiety came from fear. Fear of failure to achieve 'The target'.  

Truth be told, I could not afford  to fail in this. Literally.

I was so anxious, that I fell sick. My hubby and a dear friend keep telling me not to stress over it. Intellectually, I understood that. But, I was far from it. In the storm of my anxiety, the verse 'Be still', keep popping up. I am not quite sure how to describe this, but despite the anxiety that goes on in my head, deep within my heart, there is a 'place' that felt very calm and peaceful. It wasn't until I was all spent from anxiety, that I took note of this 'sense'. It has been there all along, except I seem to allow my anxiety took over rather than focusing on what matters.

That was when I told myself to 'follow that peace'. The moment I followed it, *click!*, the anxiety was gone. Once I followed 'that peace', the thought of failing to achieve even became bearable. The thought no longer made me want to gorge my eyes out of its sockets in panic. Huh, wadaya know...

So, 'followed the peace', I did. Last Saturday, as I waited for us to be allowed to enter the exam room, I prayed to the Heavenly Father that I was entering the room because I know He is in there too. The exam went fine. I have no idea if I am able to achieve the target, but at least I managed to finished on time, sans diva drama.

Now we wait, and be still.