Word of the day

I sure do know where it wanders..

Nonetheless..

'nuff said...

January 2012

The last quarter of 2011 was filled with events and drama that just left me speechless. Which was good.

For, should I have found my 'voice' during those time, I would not like how I sounded, anyway. Hence the lack of posts.

It's a new year, with promises of new beginning.

January is my birthday month. My wonderful collegues organised a so-called surprise for my birthday at the office. It was really sweet of them. This is the first year that I was not on leave on my birthday as I was only back to work from a long year- end-clear-all-your-remaining- leave,  a couple of days before the Bday.

There is an advantage when your Bday fall on January. It's still early in the year that you are filled with resolutions and new hopes for the new year, that your wish for the year would also become your resolution.

What I learnt last year that almost made me lose my 'voice' and left me jaded, would become the pillar of my resolutions this year.

My theme this year would be :

Love myself enough...
1. ... to learn new words. Words which will uplift and soothes the soul.
2. ... to recognise that a certain influences are no longer healthy for the soul, and let it go.
3. ... to embrace the peace that comes from knowing I have all that I need, despite the world telling me of the things that I lacked..
4. ... to continue pursuing The Dream
5. ... to let go of the fear of not knowing, and put on the courage to explore..

Does that look like an achieveable list?

Not too ambitious, eh.. :)

It's December,

and  I am in a Christmas mood..

Wishing you

love,

 peace,

 and great joy!

When I grow up...

{everyone of my close friends knows this answer}...

.... I want to be like Oprah.

I only managed to watch her last show over the weekend. With heavy heart, I have to accept the fact that one of the bullets in my bucket list would not be crossed off, which is; 'To be one of Oprah's studio audience for the Oprah's Favorite Things'..

Oh well...

In my community, there are not many role models that I look up to. {With exception of my Mother & Grandmother}. I only 'got to know' Oprah, as in really watch her show, in the last 10 years. At that point I was drowning and needed a new perspective in life. When I first watched her show, she was the fresh air, the role model, that I needed.

I could not even begin to explain the impact she has in my life. She helped me learn things about myself. I grew up learning the values she shared in her show. I do feel sad that I would not be able to see her again every day, as the show has been my go-to for all things good.

But I do understand that it is time to let it go and move on.

Below are excerpts from the script of her show which struck my inner most chords.

 Fav # 1
“Nobody but you is responsible for your life. You are responsible for your life. What is your life? What is all life? What is every flower, every rock, every tree? Energy. And you’re responsible for the energy you create for yourself, and you’re responsible for the energy that you bring to other.

Oh, I love this one so much. And it came at a right time too. Just when I was feeling a little jaded and cynical lately, I watched this show and 'thump', a bump on my forehead. Now, I find myslef repeating the same quote 'Please take responsibility for the energy you bring into this space.' .. Hmmm.. considering to put this on my FB profile.

Fav #2

"I have felt the presence of God my whole life. Even when I didn't have a name for it, I could feel the voice bigger than myself speaking to me, and all of us have that same voice. Be still and know it. You can acknowledge it or not. You can worship it or not. You can praise it, you can ignore it or you can know it. Know it. It's always there speaking to you and waiting for you to hear it in every move, in every decision. I wait and I listen. I'm still—I wait and listen for the guidance that's greater than my meager mind.

"The only time I've ever made mistakes is when I didn't listen. So what I know is, God is love and God is life, and your life is always speaking to you. First in whispers. ... It's subtle, those whispers. And if you don't pay attention to the whispers, it gets louder and louder. It's like getting thumped upside the head, like my grandmother used to do. ... You don't pay attention to that, it's like getting a brick upside your head. You don't pay attention to that, the whole brick wall falls down. That's the pattern I've seen in my life, and it's played out over and over again on this show.

 This re-affirms the 'Be Still' whispers lately. There were times, when I was not sure which way to go, how to react, but the verse "Be still and know that I am God" have  been a constant whisper this past few months. I get it, the 'Be still' part. Now, once still,  I just need to learn to listen.

The show might have ended but her lessons, I will keep close to my heart.

Thank you, Oprah.

Only You

A person can make you feel high,
A person can make you feel low.
But only you can decide,
Which way you want to go.

A person can hurt you mentally,
A person can hurt you physically.
But only you can place,
A limit on your abilities.

A person can cause drama,
A person can cause a situation.
But only you can create,
Your own reputation.

A person can make you laugh,
A person can make you cry.
But only you can make,
Decisions for your life.

I guess what I'm trying to say,
That when you're living day to day.
Don't live by what people do,
But live by what you know is true

~Author Unknown~

Masks and charades

I have had it up till my eyebrows having to deal with charades.

One of my pet peeves is real life charades.

If it is a game, I would dive into it.

But if anyone plays it in real life, it is not something I would be able to handle delicately.

No, siree.

Change perspective

There seem to be a list of things which could just easily get under my nerves today. Just thinking about them could easily set me off. I was just a few alphabets away from  spiraling into verbal diarrhoea, before I was reminded of what a conversation I had with one of my earthly angels over breakfast last Saturday.

One of the conclusions we both came to at the end of our conversation was;
"Don't like what you see, but have to live with it? Change your perspective."

'Tis true. After all there is no such thing as the truth, is there?  Life is always a matter of perspective.

So with this 'perspective' in mind, I chose to search for visual images that could help to lower my blood pressure today.

In case you be needing some colour therapy, thought I 'd share what calms me down in a matter of seconds.

(Source Mary Gibbs Art)

(Source: bunnygriffeth.blogspot)

Personal collection

(Source: realestate.com.)

(Source: bestemergingartist.com)

(Source: vijaycoolart.com)

I also learnt today that, it is not so much of the paintings or pictures per se that calms me down, but it's the colour within the frame itself.

There... I am in the zen now..